My unhealthy obsession is Doctor Who. Everyone who knows me at all, knows that the show, the stories, the concept, the actors, are all things that I thoroughly enjoy. I have been watching the show from some of my earliest memories. I remember watching the show with my mom before my earliest moments of singing on stage with my dad, which I started doing when I was about 4 or 5. I tell people I get my nerdiness from my Mom, whom I am very thankful for. She would watch tv shows (mainly Doctor Who & Star Trek) & read books with stories that were fun & interesting. I grew up enjoying many of the same shows & books. I admired characters I watched on TV & though I was smart enough to recognize that it wasn't real, I still wanted to be like those women that were so elegant & smart. I think I grew up very smart in knowing what I liked in people because of the shows & books that I read. I found qualities in personalities that I thought were important & throughout life many of those things stuck with me. I know that my first real crush was on a character in a book. I was about 9 years old & all my friends loved those teeny-bopper TV stars because they were cute. I was even given posters, but I felt weird because in comparison to the characters in my books, the tv stars acted stupid. I wanted something more than just looks, or to know that his favorite food was pizza. I wanted personality with values that acted with such valiance that would make adults & children respect & love him.
Monday, May 25, 2009
A starting point
This is something I have thought about doing for a while now but I have a bad habit of talking myself out of doing things. Then I got to experience another situation (no I won't talk about it because it would name someone) that made me decide that this might be a bit therapeutic. As time goes by I will be sharing about me, why I love the things I love, do the things that I do, & things that I notice that are different about being a girl in the "fanboy" world. I'll do a good deal of complaining but keep in mind that much of this has been built up for many years & I have no desire to keep it in anymore. I am sure I shall offend someone along the way & I could apologize now but keep in mind that I mean no disrespect to anyone specifically but if you're so touchy as to take something said in general, to heart & get hurt by it...then there is nothing I can do about it.
I know of a few girls like me & actually know, even fewer. I am an odd duck, have been called a one percenter. I don't fit the mold or stereo types that the few girls with my hobbies & interests tend to be in. I am a girly girl, but I love to work on cars, I still get captivated by comic books like I did when I was 13. Almost everything I watch on TV is of the science fiction genre & the books I read are fantasy or science fiction. The only real interest in life that I have, that isn't considered weird for a grown woman to love is music. Not just listening to it either, I love to play it, to sing it, to write it.
I am a kind of "fangirl" I love to go to the comic book stores & I recently found that I enjoy comic book, sci/fi, fantasy conventions. Fandom calender has proven that fangirls can be sexy but I am just an average looking woman with a slender build. I was a lonely goofy looking kid & stayed that way into my teenage years. I finally got a little in the way of curves & became someone who was no longer an awkward shy little girl who would sit with her books in a quiet corner. I had been forced to develop a personality to make people like me because I knew that my looks weren't going to win me any prizes & since then I have been told that because of my personality, my appearance is more attractive. I am naturally slender but I have worked to stay at least semi in shape & I have moments when I have to listen to those that are only slightly over weight bitch at me for being skinny. The prejudice against the slender is real as there is against the fat. Anyways, because I am slender & do what I can to be attractive. With the hobbies & interests I have, many of the male gender tend to gravitate towards me. I agreed to date my husband because I knew we'd have something in common to talk about because I found out he liked some of the same comic book characters as I did. We grew to find that we had more in common & I am very thankful that I agreed to give him my number. It seems to be though, that because I am not fat & don't look as though I have fallen out of the top of a fugly tree, most other women tend to show their insecurities with their men when it comes to me. They get it into their heads that I am going to steal their man away from them. What is worse is when men get stupid & think that I am interested in them romantically because I share their interests. They don't take into account that I am quick to mention that I am married & that I love my husband very deeply. I do like a cute nerd so I married myself a math teacher, it doesn't get much nerdier than that.
I know of a few girls like me & actually know, even fewer. I am an odd duck, have been called a one percenter. I don't fit the mold or stereo types that the few girls with my hobbies & interests tend to be in. I am a girly girl, but I love to work on cars, I still get captivated by comic books like I did when I was 13. Almost everything I watch on TV is of the science fiction genre & the books I read are fantasy or science fiction. The only real interest in life that I have, that isn't considered weird for a grown woman to love is music. Not just listening to it either, I love to play it, to sing it, to write it.
I am a kind of "fangirl" I love to go to the comic book stores & I recently found that I enjoy comic book, sci/fi, fantasy conventions. Fandom calender has proven that fangirls can be sexy but I am just an average looking woman with a slender build. I was a lonely goofy looking kid & stayed that way into my teenage years. I finally got a little in the way of curves & became someone who was no longer an awkward shy little girl who would sit with her books in a quiet corner. I had been forced to develop a personality to make people like me because I knew that my looks weren't going to win me any prizes & since then I have been told that because of my personality, my appearance is more attractive. I am naturally slender but I have worked to stay at least semi in shape & I have moments when I have to listen to those that are only slightly over weight bitch at me for being skinny. The prejudice against the slender is real as there is against the fat. Anyways, because I am slender & do what I can to be attractive. With the hobbies & interests I have, many of the male gender tend to gravitate towards me. I agreed to date my husband because I knew we'd have something in common to talk about because I found out he liked some of the same comic book characters as I did. We grew to find that we had more in common & I am very thankful that I agreed to give him my number. It seems to be though, that because I am not fat & don't look as though I have fallen out of the top of a fugly tree, most other women tend to show their insecurities with their men when it comes to me. They get it into their heads that I am going to steal their man away from them. What is worse is when men get stupid & think that I am interested in them romantically because I share their interests. They don't take into account that I am quick to mention that I am married & that I love my husband very deeply. I do like a cute nerd so I married myself a math teacher, it doesn't get much nerdier than that.
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